Sunday, September 29, 2013

I have two sons...


Actually I have 3 sons. Eli and Liam are my sons by birth and Ronan is my son by "adoptive" love. He is Jenn and Johns son but I consider him as much one of my own as I do Eli and Liam. Those 3 boys have my heart in their grips.They have also had me thinking a lot lately.

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I'm not the kind of girl that envisioned her dream wedding or fairy tale dress. I never thought much about those things but the one thing I did always envision was my family. My family consisting of one boy and one girl. Just like I was raised. Then I began to have my own children. First came Eli, the oldest boy, just perfect and as I expected. Then we got pregnant again and along came Liam. A perfect, beautiful bundle of BOY joy....Not what I had anticipated. With my held low, I admit I struggled and at times still do...a boy? I always wanted a girl. A sweet little girl to dress up, to have coffee dates with, to stay up late chatting, to raise her to be a women of God and to love on.  Please, please, please don't misunderstand. I love my sons with all my heart. I would NEVER trade them for the world, it just wasn't what I envisioned.

Ro & Eli in their fancy matching ties
When a dear friend of mine had her second baby boy my outlook on my world changed. She helped me to see the beauty and perfection in having all these boys.  The Lord began to speak to me about relationships. My prayers have been redirected and my selfishness is in the process of being removed because ultimately it is not I who knows best but the Lord and when I allow Him to do what is perfect and right in EVERY aspect of our lives, it will be well with my soul.  I pray these boys will be more then brothers but they will be BEST friends. Even though I realize that boys don't think like me, communicate like me or are nearly as emotional as me, I pray that they will be able to share on a level I can't even begin to imagine. That they will have relationships with each other and their fathers, deeply rooted in the Lord. That when they are frustrated that they can go to one another because they understand each other, when they are filled with joy they will  call on each other, that they will always be there for each other.


My brother & I
My brother is an AMAZING man and I am proud to be his sister. We had an unusual relationship in that we RARELY ever fought and we just understood each other. I adore my older brother. Maybe we got along so well because he is so much older then me (4.5 years) or maybe its because I think more like a man...who knows. Regardless, our relationship was a real gem, a rare find between siblings and I will cherish it forever. That being said, I pray that these boys have a much greater relationship. A bond that only brothers can understand. Best friends.

David and Jonathan had a relationship that was beautiful. I pray the same for my sons. Jonathan was willing to risk himself for David and for what he knew to be right in the Lord. I pray the same for my sons.
Two jokesters are better than one!
Painting together
Eli helping Ro clean his ice cream face
David and Jonathan were not blood brothers yet they loved each other as such. Relationships go beyond our blood family. We are called to love one another. To turn to one another and have a special bond with others. To disciple each other. I pray that my sons will not just be best friends but that they will challenge one another in the Lord. That they will grow in the Word together and through that, they will have relationships with others. That they will Worship the Lord together and with others. That they will disciple others. That they will follow the Great Commission:
               
               


                 Matthew 28:16-20
                       16. Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee to the mountain where
                       had told them to go. 17. When they saw him they worshiped him; but
                       some doubted. Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in
                       heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19. Therefore go and make
                       disciples of all nation, baptizing them in the name of the Father and Son
                       and Holy Spirit, 20. and teaching them to obey everything I have
                       commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of
                       the age."

I have three sons. These sons have taught me more about love, relationships and discipleship then I have learned in a long time. These sons have taught me where my faults are now and how I must be changed. These boys have taught me how to pray again, for them, for me and for others.

The boys hanging out!
I pray that you and your relationships will grow, be challenged and through your relationships you will learn what it means to be disciples. To lose the focus of ourselves and love others unconditionally.To share the love of Lord with others, because that is all that matters in this life.

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